MUNCHIE....

That's me this week! I want to eat eat eat! UGH! That doesn't work when you're trying to lose weight. I am trying to drink water to curb my appetite, and trying to eat a small snack here and there, but my gosh, I am still so hungry! It's crazy! I want it to STOP! Why must the food part of this be so hard? I can't seem to get that under control. It's ridiculous how badly I want to go get that bucket of ice cream and wipe it out! Not just a few bites, but ALL of it! WHY? Why do I think I need to eat it all!?!? So frustrating! I'm not going to eat it all, in fact I am going to stay out of it completely today! I will not eat any of it! Last night at Bible study Leah was so touching. She shared a lot of her pain and problems to us last night. Bless her heart. I wish I could have half of her strength. She has to struggle just to get out of a chair, and I can stand without any problems, heck, I can climb on the elliptical for 30 minutes or more with no problem. I have to be thankful for that. I feel like I let God down sometimes. I feel like I'm a big disappointment. It's sad the pity parties I throw myself! I'm ridiculous sometimes! I have to remember, I have not let Him down, He doesn't see me through human eyes, He sees my heart. He sees me trying and He loves me even when I struggle. He loves me and will never leave me! WOW! He's awesome! Just trust in Him and this will get me through. I'm still craving snacks, but I do feel better. I needed to put it all in front of me so I can see how crazy I'm acting. I can do this...I will do this. I have no other choice. Just forget that the ice cream is in there, and go about your day, NOW! The Lord is my source of strength, with Him I can do ALL things! Lord take these cravings away! PLEASE! Help me to remain strong and not to give in to these temptations to eat and eat!