The voices, they were humbled today before my glorious Creator. I love the morning jog when there's just me, my dog, and my ipod full of praises for my Lord! We had a come to Jesus meeting and I was reminded that only He can answer the prayers and in His time. VBS will work out and so will the garage sale and the family reunion. The voices have been silenced for now, and I am so happy today. I also have to thank a great friend for offering to help me out with a VBS issue, at least I know that the kiddos will have a teacher, even if none of the other people pan out. God is good and He will deliver when asked for humbly and without greed of heart! I want these monkeys to have a great experience and to see Him work in some of their lives like no other can!
So, the weight loss issues. I've started counting my calories again. I've not done well in several weeks and I'm not sure what is going on, so I'm going to keep up with how much I'm eating for a while and see if that helps. I'm SO ready to see more results on the scale, though I do see results in my clothing, seriously thought my shorts would fall off yesterday, YAY! God and I, well we also had a chat this morning about keeping myself on the right path and to make His path so apparant to me that it shines like a beacon! I'm assuming that me losing weight is all a part of this path, because if I don't keep working it off, I will surely end up in an early grave, and I don't want that.
I also have to get a hold of my house, it seems to be running away from me, I just can't seem to get started on ANYTHING inside! I love to mow and weedeat and plant flowers and such, I just hate laundry, cleaning up, and anything to do with the inside! I know this is all a part of taking care of my family and myself, but I just can't seem to motivate in this area! WHY? It has to be done and no one will do it for me, so get off my duff and get it done....maybe later! hehe I have to get out to the shed, have to get ready for this garage sale Friday and Saturday! Phew! Anything else added to my plate???? Just kidding, cause I'm sure there could be more! :D
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
The Voices in my head.....
These voices in my head keep telling me that the reason that I'm struggling to get teachers for VBS, is because I'm the one in charge! I know there's a level of apathy in every church but this is ridiculous! I've been begging and I've been running my tail off and wondering if this is actually going to happen! I've been praying that God put it on someone's heart that they will step up and teach this little guys, if not, it looks like I will be teaching and heading up everything else! WOW, doesn't that sound like fun! UGH! Why does the devil place these thoughts in my head, it's a little nerve racking! I am really ready to get this done and hopefully next year someone else will step up, 'cause I ain't doing it!
These voices are also telling me to quit, just quit going to the gym! You're not accomplishing much, so why keep going! UGH! I know I am accomplishing a little, and a little will become more and more as time goes on, but I'm SO tired lately, SO TIRED! I'm really bummed and these voices, they just aren't helping me at all! The negative thoughts, the negative feelings, they were gone for a while, but have come back with a vengeance! Am I a schizoid or what! I have to stop the focusing on myself and focus on the task at hand...to be healthier for my family and to get this VBS going for those kiddos! God will prevail and He will get those in His classes that He wants! He will also help me to stay focused on my health and fitness and stopping these voices in my head! God is good and He will see me through! Shut up voices, I'm referring to my creator! HE IS GOOD!
These voices are also telling me to quit, just quit going to the gym! You're not accomplishing much, so why keep going! UGH! I know I am accomplishing a little, and a little will become more and more as time goes on, but I'm SO tired lately, SO TIRED! I'm really bummed and these voices, they just aren't helping me at all! The negative thoughts, the negative feelings, they were gone for a while, but have come back with a vengeance! Am I a schizoid or what! I have to stop the focusing on myself and focus on the task at hand...to be healthier for my family and to get this VBS going for those kiddos! God will prevail and He will get those in His classes that He wants! He will also help me to stay focused on my health and fitness and stopping these voices in my head! God is good and He will see me through! Shut up voices, I'm referring to my creator! HE IS GOOD!
Monday, May 3, 2010
FINALS WEEK!!
So, this is finals week! I have one to take Wednesday evening, and one online to take by Thursday! I also have to get my classroom observances done today and tomorrow! I also have to get in to my advisor to figure out what classes to take next semester and get stuff together so that we can have a great VBS! Phwew! That's quite a bit to get done this week, but I'm SO ready to be done with my classes this semester so I can get started on summer! :D YAY!
I weighed this morning, DOWN another 4 pounds since last Monday! YAY! That's a total of about 30 lbs since January! I'm so excited! I can feel the difference the working out is doing for my body and my energy, now if I could just get my mind in tune with the rest of me, I'd be doing pretty good! I still struggle with body image and self confidence, but I feel that will come as the weight keeps coming off, I hope! My "darkside" has been better, I don't get so unhappy and sad as much during the month, so that's a good thing. I also can play with the kids more and not just sit and stare at the TV or my computer. My ultimate goal is to run a 5K in September! I think I'll be able to achieve this goal, I'm currently walk/jogging 2.5 miles, so I think by September I'll be good to go!
God is SO good and has blessed me beyond measure and I have to remember that everything I have and everything I am, is only because He loves me, ALL of me, just the way I am, and nobody can change that! I just love the saying, "It's hard to stumble when you are on your knees!" I'm trying to keep Him in my every thought and action and word throughout my day! It can be difficult, but I will keep trying. Life is sweeter when your living for Him! Going to shower up, got to get around so I can get my precious Dyl-pickle and eat lunch and head to the Jr. High today! Hope it's a great one!
Oh forgot to mention, it's Dunnigan's birthday this Friday, so I'm taking him to dinner and a movie, first date night we've had in a while! SO excited! Going with some of our best friends, too...WOO HOO! Can't wait!
I weighed this morning, DOWN another 4 pounds since last Monday! YAY! That's a total of about 30 lbs since January! I'm so excited! I can feel the difference the working out is doing for my body and my energy, now if I could just get my mind in tune with the rest of me, I'd be doing pretty good! I still struggle with body image and self confidence, but I feel that will come as the weight keeps coming off, I hope! My "darkside" has been better, I don't get so unhappy and sad as much during the month, so that's a good thing. I also can play with the kids more and not just sit and stare at the TV or my computer. My ultimate goal is to run a 5K in September! I think I'll be able to achieve this goal, I'm currently walk/jogging 2.5 miles, so I think by September I'll be good to go!
God is SO good and has blessed me beyond measure and I have to remember that everything I have and everything I am, is only because He loves me, ALL of me, just the way I am, and nobody can change that! I just love the saying, "It's hard to stumble when you are on your knees!" I'm trying to keep Him in my every thought and action and word throughout my day! It can be difficult, but I will keep trying. Life is sweeter when your living for Him! Going to shower up, got to get around so I can get my precious Dyl-pickle and eat lunch and head to the Jr. High today! Hope it's a great one!
Oh forgot to mention, it's Dunnigan's birthday this Friday, so I'm taking him to dinner and a movie, first date night we've had in a while! SO excited! Going with some of our best friends, too...WOO HOO! Can't wait!
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