Walking through wet cement...

That's what I felt like today when I got on my treadmill, like I was walking through wet cement and it was drying really quickly! I wanted to stop so badly, my legs were screaming, my arms felt like 50 lb weights, and my mind was no where close to exercise! I stayed on and went up to 10% incline and back down and thought I'd get off after I hit 1%, but I trudged through the cement and eventually I felt like it wasn't drying quite so fast. I kept hearing in my head, "Pain is just weakness leaving the body." I believe this statement wholeheartedly. I am lazy, have been lazy for a long time, and getting this laziness off of my shoulders is gonna take a lot of work. I stayed on the treadmill and even went back up to 5% and back down again, and even jogged for a minute just to see what it felt like. It was HARD, I'm not gonna lie and say it was easy, cause it wasn't, but I did it and I'm proud. I am gonna lose this weight and change my life forever, I will not die to my obesity! I'm sick of it, sick of it! Sick of feeling awful, of looking awful, and feeling like less of a person because of my weight. I refuse to quit this time! Woo hoo, the endorphins have kicked in and I feel good right now! HEHE!